In Pat’s own, unvarnished words…

At least once a week since forever, I complain (yeah, I do that sometimes) to Mel at work that I DO EVERYTHING at home…the cooking, cleaning, laundry…blah, blah, blah. I told her all I want is some one to take care of me for once. 

Before my diagnosis, as I was starting all the different tests, Kelli [my niece] sent me an email to tell me she was praying for me that morning. She sent me a copy of that day’s saying from a booklet she has. She thought it relevant to what I was facing. 

The first line of the prayer is…”I AM TAKING CARE OF YOU.”

I couldn’t memorize the whole saying, but I repeated that one line to myself throughout the day and every day after that. It took a few days, but one day a light bulb went off and I thought to myself “OMG! You have been taking care of me all along, and only now did I realize it.

I felt so content. I absolutely knew it to be true.

Kathi [my sister] has since given me a copy of this same book and I read each saying on [that] day. I’ve resisted looking forward and reading through the whole thing. 

When I wake up each morning, before I read the passage, I think to myself “What do I have to do today? What will I be facing? What am I afraid of?”

I usually find at least one line [from each saying] I can repeat to myself throughout the day.

It helps…

…until next time…pat.

(Click on my next post, entitled…NURTURING THURSDAYS: I AM TAKING CARE OF YOU…AS SHARED BY PAT.)