Last night I had asked Pat if she preferred I not continue to blog her health journey. I thought it might be too difficult to share her thoughts, thereby baring her soul, as time went on.
In no time, I received a reply.
Pat explained that if what she was going through could help others, than sharing news about her experience was worth it. She went on to say
“…writing about it helps me.”
Most of what I’ve sent [you] so far has been light, meant to make me (and, hopefully, others) laugh.
It wouldn’t be fair, however, if I led people to think that I’m breezing through this, although, luckily, so far it seems I have.
And although I really like all the doctors and nurses taking care of me, the reality is that after certain appointments, like today, I get just a little depressed.
I’m reminded “Yes. You are sick. And yes. It is serious.”
So when Brad asked if I was going to update the family, I said I would but that I needed to digest it all for myself first.
It takes a little while to get my mojo back.
It’s on its way back now.
I’ll pray. Reread your blog and the comments left. Listen to Hawaiian music and do whatever else I can that allows me to take a step back and ask myself…”How am I feeling right now? Because right now is all I have. And if in this moment, I feel good, then let’s celebrate!”
Worrying about things that may [or may not] occur means experiencing them many more times than necessary. In reality, I’ll only experience them when they actually occur. ( FYI…I’m not as smart as you might think. This came from a bible study passage I’d read on 1/16.)
Anyway, [hugmamma], I think you know where I’m coming from. I trust your judgment when it comes to blogging.
So let’s blog on!
I’m feeling better…can you tell?
…yes, pat…i can tell.
As a postscript, Pat added that since she couldn’t get a hold of her sister to wish her a Happy Birthday she did the next best thing.
During today’s treatment, to take my mind off the shot I was getting, I sang “Happy Birthday” to her in my head. Corny. I know…but it helped.
…hugs and aloha…pat…